ackward evening thoughts

For some insane reason I felt the need to post this unflattering and unnecessary picture. It's been on my computer since Christmas and finally found a home. My mom took it and it can safely be said that she has no definate sign of becoming a professional photographer anytime in the near or distant future. *I love you mom! Don't worry she has a good sense of humor like me, so its all good.

In other news I have to get my wisdom teeth cut out:( Yuck. I'm not really scared about the healing its the cutting into my body that freaks me out. The blood that I'll probably swallow is also making me gag a little bit as we speak. I guess it has to be done though.

At work today I found myself grinning and laughing to myself quite often. Chuck Klosterman and his 23 questions made my afternoon. I do that a lot at work. People either think I have a disorder or that I just heard something really funny. I guess you could say both are in the runnings for a adequate answer. I usually do not feel strange for doing this, as I work in a thrift store where fifty year old men buy granny panties, but today I felt like I was being watched. Call me crazy but I felt eyes on me all day.

Anyways, other than my inappropriate laughter I had a rather uneventful day. Tomorrow is the fourth of July and I do not have to work, which if I'm lucky will equal fun, or at the most a full agenda.

Well I have to put the little one too bed. Happy 4th:)

-V

procrastination and the institution of marriage

Well the writing group i'm in has grown a bit. It makes me actually a little more inclined to take time to write. I've gotten so lost in reading that my writing has taken the backseat to it. I got a writing assignment of sorts which will make it so much easier to focus. With everything thats going on its nice to have a little bit of structure in my life.

Haha well to be honest I am reading another book right now. My friend Libby borrowed it to me and I am reading it right away. So Paint It Black is on hold for the moment. Anyways, the book is Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman. So amazing. It is totally a Vanessa read. Reminds me of David Sedaris. It has the same clever wit. Hilarious and completetly on point. I'm almost done with it.

I made some iced coffee at home. It's pretty good. Not quite as good as coffee shop kind, but it will do. I am all out of creamer though:( Darn it.

Ok this is a little strange but last night I could not stop thinking about marriage and the patriarcy of it all. I mean don't get me wrong marriage can be wonderful and fulfilling, but I can't help thinking about the crazies that issue such insanity upon women. Like, for example, the people whom say that women can not be raped if they are married. WTF. I just can not even fathom how insane some of these people are, and worse, that some of patriarcy's biggest advocates are women. Figure that one out. It just really upsets me sometimes to think that in some marriages women are raped and abused and they will not or do not feel like they can stop it. I think thta marriage as an instituion is flawed. I am only getting married to someone that respects me as an equal. Which is what marriage should be like.

Wow, thats it for today
-Vanessa